Everything I Have

"Thank God for granting me this moment of clarity, this moment of honesty" - Jay-Z

I thank GOD for granting me this moment of clarity right now, this moment of honesty right now. For the past few days, the words of my friend Jamelle Sanders have deeply resonated with me. Today in particular, I am thinking about this: 

"This is the moment that you have be waiting for. Now is the time to move into your future"

During this past week, I've met so many people who have opened my eyes to new opportunities and possibilities. There is so much that is out there and so much for me to learn. For the first time in a while, I am taking advantage of just about every opportunity that's been presented to me.

Here's something else: next week will be my last week working at this non-profit. From mid-December to mid-March, I worked as an administrative assistant at this organization and I would like to think that I gave them everything I have. For my last week: I am focus on giving everything I have and leaving it all there. 

That's the theme (and the new hashtag) for the rest of the month: Everything I have: #EverythingIHave

I would also like to think that I give my family and friends everything I have. I know that I need to give my parents more for all they have given me. In terms of thinking about my friendships, I would like to think that I am a good friend and give my friends everything I have: that's why I'm here this weekend.

I have four friends who are performing this weekend in "Empire" - a bellydancing show. Each of them have worked hard throughout the year to make this happen and I'm here to support them - in Princeton. Although it's always good to see my other Quad and Princeton friends, the main reason I'm here is to see their show. Besides that, I do not belong here. My good friend A put things into great perspective for me: 

"Yeah you shouldn't be here, but it means a lot to N that you are."

This is #DoOrDieMarch and the future is in my grasp. At the beginning of the month, I appreciated Jamelle's words for the momentary spark that they provided, but now, this is a fire and I need to unleash, i.e. give #EverythingIHave.

Although I may not be at that new place or position come April 1st, I'll say this: Come that date, if I can say to myself that I have worked hard, stuck to the gameplan, followed-through, and have taken advantage of every opportunity presented to me - then that's a win. There is so much about this journey that I'm enjoying, namely the growth and the challenge. 

I'll leave you with a preview for next time: everything happens for a reason. Although in my heart I feel that I should not be here in Princeton, three really good things happened within the last 24 hours.

#DoOrDieMarch 

#FightForDestiny

#EverythingIHave